Death is The Best Motivator
This might sound very dark and even confusing but in all honesty I find the thought of death being my biggest motivator.
I used to be so terrified of thinking about death and how it was bound to happen to everyone including me. I remember having panic attacks in the middle of the night, the thought of it would just take over me and go into a vicious cycle until it made me jump out of my bed and scream, pretty unpleasant experience .
I tried getting over the thought but still nothing helped. It kept repeating over and over again until I have gotten used to it and now I am absolutely comfortable with it.
It’s funny how we always try not to think about it, we always try to distract ourselves from that one thing that we absolutely know is going to happen. We ignore its importance and pretend like we will always live on for ever and ever. This type of delusional thinking weakens our performance.
Here is how I think – I know I am going to die one day even though I am only 22 years old. I know it is going to happen. It is a reality and I am facing it, I am embracing the thought that we only have so much time on this planet. It makes me want to cherish my experiences more profoundly, makes me want to work harder, makes me want to change the world before I go and leave it as a better place when I am gone.
It’s interesting how the idea of knowing about our death is the price we pay for being self-aware. I take that deal and I am happy that I am a human who is self-aware.
We all have flaws, I mean we do, of course we do. I rationalize my flaws – clumsy at times, not too involved in my family’s affairs and events, I don’t know how to listen to other people well, I have a very short temper, I can be very egotistical at times, I can hurt people’s feelings and quickly forget about it all, I rush. I know this about myself and there is not a second in my life when I am not trying to fix those things. It is challenging, it really is but the more I think about death the more I get motivated to change myself.
I came to this world and I will go as the best version of myself. It is a very profound and powerful feeling when one looks death right in the eyes; while realizing its presence one gets even more ambitious about making this life as special as possible, making every second of one’s life count.